Gratitude

I just got out of church about half hour ago and I am feeling very grateful. 

I am grateful for:

-the joy and lightness I feel after being inspired at church

-the wise and faithful leaders of the church.  For their diligence in their callings, and the examples they are to me.

-lessons in church that always seem to apply to me, at that particular moment in my life

-missionaries and their examples of obedience and courage

-for my simple, but heartfelt testimony of the gospel

-being able to read the ensign and be inspired by the life of Prophet Thomas S. Monson

-the simplicity of the gospel

-Book of Mormon stories

Going to church is so simple. But it is such a great blessing.  I wasn't expecting coming home from church, feeling so light and happy.  Whoohoo!

You Are Ariel!

Headstrong and fiesty. You have a mind of your own that's full of romantic dreams about the world around you. Exploring exotic places is your ultimate dream, and although you can be a little naive you'll realize that there is something to be gained from your family's wisdom.

Which Disney Princess Are You?

Do have those moments where you think life is totally sucky and wonder, "How is it going to get better from here?"  Well, I have the solution.

Step 1 - Gather up all those bad thoughts that brought you to this icky state

Step 2 - Find a quiet place where you will not be disturbed

Step 3 - (you might be catching on, already...) Kneel down

Step 4 - Begin praying to your Heavenly Father about whatever is on your mind

A few minutes ago, I began to fill up with all those yucky, discouraging thoughts.  I was getting grouchy and I wanted to solve my grouchiness with a bowl of ice cream!  

But, I found praying was much healthier for me.  And I came out of it feeling, strangely GRATEFUL!  Who'd a thought! Grateful.

Well, that was my experiment. But, I can't convince you.  You'll just have to try it out yourself.

1-0-5

Today's Heat Index in NYC was 105 degrees.  

A day like this makes me miss Arizona.  

I want to go swimming.

one word

Answer the following with only one word.
1. Where is your cell phone? ....................table
2. Your significant other?.......................performing
3. Your hair?....................................sweaty
4. Your mother? .................................INCREDIBLE
5. Your father?..................................healthier
6. Your favorite thing?..........................chocolates
7. Your dream last night?........................dance?
8. Your favorite drink...........................seltzer
9. Your dream/goal?..............................company
10. The room you're in?..........................livingroom
11. Your children?...............................heaven
12. Your fear?...................................failure
13. Where do you want to be in 6 years..........Improved
14. Where were you last night?..................SoHo
15. What you're not?............................confident
16. Muffins......................................scones
17. One of your wish list items?.................airfare
18. Where you grew up?...........................Arizona
19. What you read last...........................Scriptures
20. What are you wearing?........................skirt
21. Your TV?.....................................Harry Potter
22. Your pets?...................................none
23. Your computer? ..............................rose
24. Your life?...................................confused
25. Your mood?...................................guilty
26. Missing someone?.............................husband
27. Your car?....................................subway
28. Something you're not wearing?................makeup

29. Favorite Store?..............................Pathmark
30. Your summer?.................................travel
31. Like someone?................................husband
32. Your favorite color?.........................white
33. Last time you laughed........................today?
34. Last time you cried?.........................today

Happy Mudder's Day...

to all you amazing, talented, multi-tasking, beautiful 

Moms!  

I hope to be as awesome as you one day!

Performance

Hey if you're free or need ideas for a date night--

I'm performing at LaGaurdia High School on Friday

May 16th @ 5:30pm and 7pm (that's right 2 

opportunities to see the show!).

It's a formal showing of choreographer Adam Barruch's

work.  It's an excellent performance with beautiful dancers.

And it's not a huge commitment, the showcase is about 40 minutes.

Did I mention....IT'S FREE!  Just email or call me if you plan to come.

sorry there wasn't a cool picture. I tried to post the flier, but it wouldn't work.

New Stuff

I got two new gadgets this week!

Nathan and I have been wanting to eat healthier lately, ya know, more fruits and vegetables, whole grains, very little meat. Word of Wisdom style. But I told Nate that the best or easiest way for us to do that is if we eat more leafy green salads. This is fine and all, except that pre-washed salads are usually expensive or, in the recent past, despite the label of being "pre-washed", I've come across a bite of dirt from my bag of greens. Yuck! That's definitely one way to promote "freshness". Stick some dirt in there to make it taste like you're eating it straight out of the ground!

Anyway, I felt strongly about this salad idea and thought rather than going the packaged salad route, we should purchase a Salad Spinner!

2 weeks later, I found a something in our fridge.... It is the coolest! I love pulling the zip cord and watch my lettuce spin out of control, whisking away all the water.


Item 2:

We've also been wanting to purchase a sewing machine. For the same reason why we wanted the salad spinner-to improve our lifestyle and hopefully making us more provident. Well my inspired mother went online to Costco.com and found a machine similar to her's for about $130 . Which is a pretty cool price for a new LCD 70+ stitch sewing machine. Despite it's awesomeness, we hummed and hawed about the $130 machine..."do we really need one?" "maybe we can wait", etc. But my wise mother urged us and so now, we are happy to say that we are owners of a brand new Brother ES-2000 sewing machine. Check it out!

Mind you, I haven't touched the thing. Although, I really wanted a sewing machine...i don't really know how to sew. BUT, I had a lesson when I was 12yrs old and plan on familiarizing myself with this lovely instrument. I'll start small with hemming pants and curtains, then move onto Simplicity and McCall's patterns (i hear their easy).

I know that if I truly were provident I would manage to dry my salads with a towel, or become really skilled at hand-sewing, but I can't say that I have any regrets about purchasing either item.

Hi Everybody!

"Hi Dr. Nick!"

(simpson's quote)

Here's the 411, the ammo, the hash, lowdown, hot poop, what's what, the inside story...about my jaw

Let's start at the beginning:

Well, to be totally honest, the surgery was a bit traumatic for me.  The prep wasn't too bad.  I tried to make everything light-hearted by cracking lame jokes to the doctors and nurses. 

They had me hooked up to an EKG monitor, put a tube in my nose that hooked me up to an oxygen tank and finally an IV for the moment when they'd put me under.

I sat there in the cold, sterile room for a good 45 minutes before it all began, which wasn't too bad, because I sat there playing with my EKG monitor.  You know to see how I could change the little waves on the screen, ie. flexing muscles, breathing slowly, etc. 

 

During this time, I contemplated whether I wanted to try to remain aware during surgery.  I knew they would give me an anesthetic that would render me unconscious for the entire procedure, but I also knew that if I really wanted to, I could remain alert, for the most part. 

The idea of being totally knocked out and not in control of my body, made me scared.  

So although, I dreamed of pink fluffy clouds and fuchsia stilt walkers, I remained alert of most conversation and all of the yanking and pulling they had to do.   

I am beginning to forget details, but a week after the surgery, I could recount a lot of what happened during that traumatic experience in the clinic.  

In the end, I was so grateful for what the oral surgeons had done (i say surgeonS because there were 3 of them altogether.  One operating, one assisting, one stabilizing my jaw, aka holding it)

that I woke up at 5am the night after my surgery and wrote thank you letters to both Doctors.

I think I embarrassed them when I gave it to them...Oh well.

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One month later

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I am doing very well!  I am not in pain.  Occasionally I feel some aching in my jaw, but I'm guessing that's just due to the healing process.  

To keep the holes in my jaw nice and clean, I have to irrigate my hole AND my tube after every meal.  Kind of gross/cool to see what comes out!

My next appointment is set for April 15th.  They'll probably do some xrays then to see how my jawbone is doing.

Every now and then I get a little anxious for really chewy/crunchy foods, but I am reminded by family members that I ought to be careful.  They're smart to tell me so.

Thank you again for praying for me and encouraging me when I've been sad about this whole situation.   I express gratitude to my Heavenly Father for you and pray for you also.

Photos will be shared of THE TUBE, but that will be posted later and with GREAT WARNING, for anyone who is REALLY squeemish.

I hate it when...

people neglect their blog. It annoys me when I'm not updated every week. However, that would make me a hypocrite! So, I updated my blog. I'm alive, healthy and sleepy. There you go. The end.

Tomorrow's the Big Day!

I go into surgery tomorrow afternoon (March 4th, 1pm EST) to have my Odontogenic Keratocyst removed and replaced by a tube which will drain the cyst, allowing bone to grow back! Yipee!
So thank you to everyone who kept me in their prayers. It's because of your prayers and your faith that 1 out of the 3 cysts started to deflate, so my jaw is already trying to grow bone.

So I love you all and pictures of my swollen face will be posted soon!

Quote of the Day!

“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”

Marianne Williamson from the book, A Return to Love: Reflections on the Principles of A Course in Miracles

"You watch your phrase-ology!"

I've always been fascinated by some of the phrases I've heard in my young to adult life. Such phrases have come from my mom, grandma, some East-Coasters, and of course I did some of my own research on the internet.
I can appreciate how idioms offer such distinct and creative imagery, like giving instruction on how to suck chicken eggs, or not touching something with a ten foot pole. A ten foot pole? Why bother?

Share, if you'd like, some of your own cooky phrases. Please, enlighten me, as well as the blogging community.

"More than you can shake a stick at"
a very large number of something.
*I find this imagery hilarious...my mom does a good impression
of this.

"Don't try to teach your Grandma to suck eggs"
Don't offer advice to someone who has more experience than oneself.
*did your Grandma ever suck eggs?

"Put your nose out of joint"
Hurt your feelings or upset your plans
*that would hurt

"Dead cat bounce"
A small and temporary recovery in a financial market following a large fall.
*cat lovers WOULD NOT like this one.

"As easy as pie"
very easy.
*now this doesn't make ANY sense. Have you ever made pie?
It's NOT easy! I guess it's the irony that makes this idiom so
useful. Or that one would be so accomplished and efficient at everything else
that making pie would be a piece of cake...er I mean, simple. Now if we were talking easy as EATING a pie, that would definitely apply to me!

I don't know if I am strong enough to remain optimistic through all of this anymore. Fear is so potent sometimes that I can't grasp hope. I sound so fatalistic don't I? I guess I can't help but be a little dramatic, it's in my nature to be bit of a performer.
But it honestly has been a little bit like a rollercoaster...
I know I have plenty to be grateful for and that there are many who are praying for my benefit, and I thank you. I have felt your prayers and they have sustained me. So I guess, instead of falling into the depths of despair, I should give thanks for my friends, family, and to my Heavenly Father.

Tag - aroni

1) What I was doing 10 years ago: I was 14 years old, just coming back from being home-schooled and trying to fit into public school again. Met my best friends Andra and Ryan in Drama class and Jacob in English class. Started noticing a particular boy, actually enjoyed my math class (Ms. Hickey), and was definitely feeling self-conscious about my body. Ahh…the awkward adolescent years!

2) 5 Things on my To Do list today:
1)Wake up
2)Read Scriptures
3)Pray
4)Go to work
5)Hang out with my best friend!

(keeping it simple today)

3) I enjoy: Socializing with my friends, holding/playing with cute kids, talking about the gospel, dancing, hiking, being active, being among nature, hanging out with my hubby, traveling, shopping, eating, eating chocolate, dressing up, playing board games, etc, etc, etc.

4) If I were suddenly made a billionaire: Pay off all student loans/debts, get health insurance, a day at the Spa, travel to Europe, Asia, South America, and Africa. Give some away, invest it…And by then I’d have spent all but a million dollars—so then naturally, I’d buy a green dress (but not a real green dress, that’s cruel)

5) 6 Jobs I have had: Babysitter, food service worker in my high school, Dance teacher, Resident Assistant, Professional dancer, GSR for a Soho spa.

6) 5 Things people don't know about me:
1) I want to become a certified Yoga instructor
2) I want to create a business with my mom designing/making clothes
3) I want to try cutting my hair short, but am too chicken to go through with it.
4) I hate making mistakes.
5) I would love to try out some more acting, even be in an indie movie!

Actually, most people will know ALL those things about me. I’m not one to keep things to myself

Baby Hungry?

....She started it!.....

Well...

Despite my the blah day I had on Friday, the rest of the weekend turned out to be pretty good.
In fact, my 'blah' Friday got better! I ended up going to a wedding reception for our next door neighbor and fellow ward member. Now this in not some gringo, "traditional" wait-in-receiving-line-for-hours sort of reception. This was a 4 hour event. There was dancing and TONS of food, and even though I don't know hardly ANY spanish I had a great time with other ward members and cute little kids. I actually wasn't able to stay the entire time, but it was fun while it lasted.

Then on Saturday I had my pizza party with my Primary class. Which was also a lot of fun.
I hadn't planned on everyone coming, but ALL of my kids came!--plus about 6 other people (I also invited parents to stay). I had a total of 15 people in my 550sq ft apartment at one point. It was madness! But, honestly, even though I was exhausted in the end and had a new soda stain on my sofa, I still had fun! The chaos, actually, made me feel at home. Funny.

Now when Sunday arrived, I was tired and still feeling icky from my cold. However, the day did not disappoint. Testimony meeting was glorious and my Primary kids did a great job in our presentation in Sharing time. I got a lot of my ideas from Leslie (my SIL) and from the website sugardoodle.net. Afterwards, during our regular class time, we memorized and familiarized ourselves with the Articles of Faith.

I guess the moral of the story is: Shut up and do your work. Whining doesn't help.

Although, things DID get better...

But I don't think I can say that my whining got me there. Probably, prayers.
Lots and Lots of prayers.


This is the Primary singing for our Ward Christmas Party.

Blah

I was not expecting today to be such a 'blah' day. I thought I'd be energetic, productive and anxious to get things done! It's almost 2pm now, do you want to know what I've been up to? Whether you do/do NOT, too bad! I'm going to tell you anyway...

I woke up late (because I was up late, coughing up a lung!) then sat in bed worrying about how I'm going to organize the drop off and pick up of all my Primary kids on Saturday for a pizza party which I'm hosting at my apartment (sometimes I miss suburbia). Then I made breakfast for me and my husband-then baked a cake and cupcakes for said party. Messed up the frosting, so that it was all runny, used it anyway. Sat and tried to prepare for the Sharing Time lesson for Sunday, got frustrated. And why? I don't know. Can't seem to stay focused. Sat down and drank some lavender tea and popped another antibiotic for my sinus infection. Got online to read some more Primary ideas, 10 minutes later I was looking at food dehydrators. And now it's rainy and overcast. Ah poo.
Well, hopefully now that I've griped to the blogging world I will now get off my large butt, suck it up and get to work!

Whine whine whine. I think I whine more as an adult than I did as a kid.

Happy Friday!

Sorry 'bout that

For anybody who was trying to see my blog these last 3 days, I must apologize because I was in the midst of deciding whether I should make my blog more secure. I don't know if I like the idea, since I am, myself, a BlogStalker. That's how I've recovered friends I lost touch with.
But, I am back on the air to share with you openly about my adventures. If I do decide to be more "exclusive" I promise to send you an email to invite you to read it.

So please forgive me if I have hurt your feelings...

Sleep Talking